I'm taking a deep breath and asking for help to face my fears

[Siwsan]

4. I'm doing my best to be optimistic

I am doing a lot of rationalizing - wondering if she's emotional and discouraged because she's worn down by the radiation treatments and steroids. Up until now, her attitude has been amazing so hearing her break down was really hard to hear.

I told her pretty much what you wrote - none of us have any assurance we will be here, tomorrow. And that there's no reason to give up hope. Her sons are coming home, this weekend, and I think having all of her kids around her will do amazing things for her spirits. Saturday is my birthday so we will probably all get together and talk about anything BUT cancer. I intend to make her laugh, alot.

Thanks so much for your support, encouragement and wisedom. It really means the world to know that I have such good people in my life, like the great people here on DU, even if it is just through cyber space!