I stopped taking Wellbutrin a couple of months ago

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under the supervision of my internist. I told her I didn't feel like I needed it any longer (the issues that existed when I started taking it are long ago resolved), and I take so many meds, I'd love to get rid of some of them.

Well, last week I started really feeling sad--after many weeks of being just fine--and not normal kind of sad but the kind of sad that just makes you want to give up on everything.

I had surgery on my right thumb/wrist, and I've been the star of the therapy group, doing an excellent job and working hard, to the point where my therapist says I'll probably be able to end therapy sooner than expected. Since I started feeling sad again, I really have to force myself to do my four-times-a-day exercises.

I don't even want to brush my teeth--and this is a big deal because the dental hygienist always gives me high marks on my home care and barely has to clean my teeth at all because I do such a good job. And now I don't want to.

I've managed to continue to keep bathing, but I don't want to wash my hair. I put on clean clothes (so far) and do the dishes and make the bed generally keep things tidy and put away. But things I did automatically are an effort now.

I'm seeing my doctor on Wednesday to ask her to put me back on Wellbutrin--and even this makes me sad. It's just another failure.

Any cheerful words would help--I'm actually crying as I type.